Erasio Memorio

Dissociative identity disorder (DID)- a mental condition whereby a single individual evidences two or more distinct identities or personalities, each with its own pattern of perceiving and interacting with the environment.

Otherwise also, an apt solution t the current situation.

Taking it t be entirely honest, it would be a decent idea t have two individualistic replicas of myself-
one unaffected by the other.
I like t think i have control over my thoughts and emotions, until what i have recently found, with most misfortune, t be terribly impossible.
That very much reflects on the way i act, the attention i give, and the things i do (which all fall under the same category- my life!).
Have therefore engaged myself in various activities which, i had hoped, would divert my attention from basically, everything else.
Following a series of failed attempts,
i have went on t read about books like 'how t deal' and 'managing your life' which have since made me feel more revulsed by reminding me how i would rather throw away my money than purchase such rubbish (which i have made a mental note never t happen, ever again.)

That has left me where i started.

If a mental condition is the answer t it all, please, let it happen-
For pain and torture are two things i'd very much prefer not t encounter.