It's part of a greater plan. It always is.

On the cross-
of gore, of blood,
of nails, of pain,
of cruelty,
almost inhumane.
Jesus, his name
unnerved, unstained,
for he died for us-
for our sins, with fain.

I know, i know,
or i think i know.
Come what may,
let it be so,
engulf me whole,
but i'd never,
never let go.

I know; or i think i do; maybe, i just hope i do (yes, hope came back). Whatever I'm going through now, it's happening for a reason- a much larger reason. A reason I believe, attributed to Him. It's possibly due t the recent exposure of films like 'Evan Almighty' and 'Bruce Almighty' that has inclined me t that perception. Life isn't that easy, and you ain't going round getting your prayers just because you want them t happen; it's makes perfect sense t think that He doesn't give you what you want, but rather the opportunity of getting what you want.

And i think, this is an opportunity.

It's funny, because just the day before, i made a prayer before i slept, and on the contrary t what i prayed for, i received (possibly) the veracious opposite. For a moment all i did was t question, deprecate, and ascribe my misfortune t Him. It spoiled my night, for the most part.

And then i thought different;
It meant something else, as i slowly overturned those cynical and blasphemous paradigms, i saw how everything could turn into a chance, into a learning opportunity. I felt much better, after.

So.
The next time something bad happens, don't blame God.
Ask, and you shall receive;
Pray in his name, and he will never deny you.
He'll give you what you want... in due time.

It's all part of a greater plan. It always is.