it might have been.

For all sad words of tongue and pen, the saddest are these, 'It might have been.'

This remains, till this day, my favourite of quotes.

Picture this:
You saunter down orchard boulevard, taking a slight halt at the junction. You're at a technical crossroad; will it be left, or right? Amidst what some people would refer t as decision making, you caught eye of a girl, merely steps away from you. You looked at her; she glanced back. It could be the terrible sweatshirt you're wearing, but it didn't occur t you then. There was a momentary pause, the mercurial pace of the city didnt stop- she stopped, and so did you. It was almost like a telepathic recognition; beyond the superficiality of appearance and wit; the possible intersection of the lives of two strangers- friends rather, who merely just didnt quite know each other t begin with.

But time, being its transient self, forbids the lingering of such a moment. The green man(along with its flashing indication) you soon discover the unknowing movement of your feet- and that that moment, is gone. You could have done something, something that would reflect less on your idiocy and possibly more on your reflex. But no, you let it pass. You start t think t yourself, what if i had stopped? what if i had said something- anything? what if?

You dont get that circadianly in a lifetime, probably only a couple-

Or once.

a world declaration

people, they make you, or break you.

Remember, remember,

the fifth of november

the Gunpowder Treason and plot,
i know of no reason why
the Gunpowder Treason should ever be forgot.

V for Vendetta yesternight was really good. Uniquely brilliant, nothing short. The kind of film that keeps you thinking. V- He's poetic, intelligent, compassionate yet ruthless all at the same time. Hell, even his name explores a certain sense of awe under that subtle simplicity. I doubt the oddly common question ever appeared in my mind throughout-
when is the show going t end?

My advice? Watch it.

Biology and History today. Putting them together? You have got t be kidding. Let's just say i'll have t try harder at the end of the year, if i ever even think about getting an average GPA of 2. Apart from certain inconvenience- the hair and piercings- am actually anticipative of the new term;
i know this time, everything will be different.

(Guess what) Here's a global shoutout:

Taking gaming off the charts, for real,

possibly the umpteenth time, truth be told

but with some luck,

procrastination will not get the better of me

no, i mean, get the hell out of my life.

turning t essentially healthier options;

it's finally time t put those words t action
So,

As of this day, my fellow friends and I have one less thing t talk about- dota.

Harry Potter is hitting the screens.
My excitement is officially off the richter scale.
Oh and if you're thinking Harry Potter's 'yesterday', you're hell wrong.

of photographs

consequences; they follow with every decision.

Have recently found it in myself, an immense attraction t photographs taken in black and white. There is something far deeper than its superficial contrast of the two extreme tones and occasional shades of grey. I am hardly much of a photographer, but a definitive photography appreciate; i could stare at a picture in the morning trying t figure what the photographer was trying t portray when he took the shot, only t be conscious t the fact that the sky has already turned a crimson red. However i find, it is most unlikely for me t ever explore that area of expertise- i doubt i have the patience nor the time for something so.. i dont know.

and t find beauty in destruction- a sin?

new york new york;

they say the stars are a little brighter, the moon's a little rounder, and even the fish and chips are a tad larger in proportion, there.

but this is why i like it there.

the crescent moon, the starless sky, but more importantly, the imperfection of it all;
for perfection gives no room for improvement

and plenty for conceit.

that of pursuit, inquiry
and of reasoning

Found myself in a state of sublimity, which didn't last very long as soon as consciousness settled in; i woke up t the soft consonance of melody and voice, very evidently from one of the old records i must have put on earlier. Without glasses i very quickly skimmed the room and found myself staring right back at me; the parents had gone overseas and were only scheduled t return the following sunday. Having taken over the parents' room (now settled very nicely on the king-sized berth staring blankly at the ceiling),
what was i t do?

The american university goal still holds- essentially the only thing left working for- so why, then am i not putting my head t shitloads of papers and words? Perhaps i dont want t do this alone, perhaps im tired of visiting cinemas with a ticket for one, perhaps im sick of this solitude,

The question is, 'Am i, really?'
Nah.

With people walking in and out of my life this easy, it figures t think, it's hardly anything worth keeping.

(the record still playing in the background) i brought them biology notes t my face- knowledge, in forms of paper, my passport, my future.

Im heading out alone, so embrace me,
american dream.

you were the navigator

/and i wonder, what'll it be like t stop breathing forever.

nothing lasts forever,

so when will it end?

then, what?

and your exit seems so effortless, so mean.

third time this month im watching the same movie twice
and its not like any of them's worth double the price-
maybe four thirds, y'knw, but not double.
terribly broke.

im a wreck.

had thaipan two days straight
currently weighing at fifty-eight;
laying off food for awhile- terrible stomachache

im a wreck.

dyed my hair. again, two nights ago. decent colour, relatively brown-er
though i'd probably never get through tong, daniel, or any disciplinary personnel.

im a wreck.

with the inclusion of today, i have eleven days t prepare for the jcts.
(which i have not, i repeat, not started at all.)

im a wreck.

and because of you
im a wreck.


that's five wrecks in a single post.
sufficient enough t disrupt my entire chi flow
which just might lead t mascularinvectocitis
(currently no cure for that, i checked.)

in short- im screwed.

two more weeks.

the workload- still untouched.
im trying, very hard, t get down t it.
'soon', cries procrastination.
soon.
from here on, im taking it slow.

it isn't easy,
and i look forward t the day
i can say
'im over you.'

and there it goes.

i guess that just proved me right.

the feeling still lingers on
but like the starry night-
it'll never get past dawn


it was nice knowing you.

its all very beautiful.

i was foolish not t see,
you were one miracle never for me

Jolene Tan Shi Yun-

you were and are my one motivation

-my ordinary miracle.

maybe its time t let that go.

shadows are part of the illusion`

i dont think you understand what's going through my mind now
im tired of all the guessing
i lied
i cant read your mind

so take me back
t the time of slow rock and rhythmic soul
t my idyllic escape
a dimension of control
where my heart doesn't get t decide

then honestly
how am i supposed t carry on
when all that i've been living for, is gone.

i miss you- but i know, that's just a one way ticket.
one way.

When a man loves a woman`

When a man loves a woman
Can’t keep his mind on nothing else
He’d trade the world
For a good thing he’s found
If she is bad, he can’t see it
She can do no wrong
Turn his back on his best friend
If he puts her down

When a man loves a woman
Spend his very last dime
Trying to hold on to what he needs
He’d give up all his comforts
And sleep out in the rain
If she said that’s the way
It ought to be

When a man loves a woman
I give you everything I got
Trying to hold on
To your precious love
Baby please don’t treat me bad

When a man loves a woman
Deep down in his soul
She can bring him such misery
If she is playing him for a fool
He’s the last one to know
Loving eyes can never see

Yes when a man loves a woman
I know exactly how he feels
’cause baby, baby, baby
I am a man

-michael bolton

now come back home`

my sister, is no doubt the hottest dancer of the century.
and i, the greatest liar.
just kidding. (:
well done, sis.


time now: 2.39pm
days since last post: 5
time since last post: 5 days, 1 hour.

'i have, known you, for 5 days, an hour'

the coincidence.

or otherwise known as, fate.