maplestory.

after centuries of thinking. ive concluded. the whole studying process leads me to so many things. education is but a dreaded game. a game that seemed beneficial at first, but it turns out to be that thing you hate. youre stuck in it. and you cant get out. its basically like maplestory ('the maid' version). youre at lvl 29. and you cant go further. because you are a magician. and u just ran out of mana pots. plus your health pots are gone, too. your experience stay at 99% and u just need that 1% to get to lvl 30 and make that job advancement! too bad. youre stuck. you really want to get this over with. but no pots! what to do? the only way is to wait for your mana to heal. so you wait. months months months. everyone around you seems to level so fast. and youre still at 99%. you start to give up hope. you wanna quit. heck that job advancement. heck that xp. you wanna get out.
just as you attempt to press that quit button, *BEEEEEEP* there's a new patch.

patch update 1.56
- new cash shop items.
- anyone who quits the game will be assured that they will,
* NOT be able enter the game again and therefore be barred from all job advancements.
* be secured of a ruin future.
- happy mappling =)

darn. what tough luck. fearing for your future, you stay on. being that magician without pots.

thats education.

bullcrap. =))

Spectacular.

tomorrow's national day.

i can hear the fireworks now.. the boom boom boom sounds. or are they thunder?
i guess not.

i had a tiff with my parents just now. over the computer. was really terrible. and i cant think of where to start. guess i'll just keep it confidential. and before my mum left, she said," enjoy your last night with your computer." wow.

okay so here i am blogging. after like a long long time. dont really have the mood lately. or mayb i just dont know what to write anymore.

you know, the thing about parents is that they catch hold of one bad point of yours, and stay with it. even if u manage to somehow get away from that topic, they'll just lead you back where you started. its like my dad. okayy for example, me, my mom, my dad. three of us, sitting in the living room. and hes raving on the fact i shouldnt even be installing computer games in my tablet. right. then i ask him, why not? so my mom says.. because it will damage your computer blah blah and you dont even noe how to take care of your computer! when you bring it to school you dont even put any special protection whatsoever. then its my turn to speak. "look, i dont put any protection doesnt mean i dont take care of it, have you ever seen me drop my tablet? jane(my sis) also puts extra protection but in the end she still dropped it didnt she? and a part was even chipped off lah pls." so daddy comes in with an analogy, " its just like a person who never studys and fail compared to another person who studys very hard and fails. there is a big difference." (in this case, he means the studyin part = the taking care of the tablet) and there is something really wrong about this statement so i told him," look, number 1, when did i even fail (drop the tablet)? you see, i din even drop the tablet to start off with. and number 2, who says i never study ( take care of tablet)? i take care of it, its just that i dont put an extra cover thats all. and i dont see any problem with that................... at this point in time, the man pauses a little and den starts saying, " but at the first place, you shouldnt install games in your computer!"


bahh oh wells. there's nothing much to talk about today really. besides the fact that the china people are actually quite nice to help out in the celebration today.. hha. the taiwanese girl's singing was quite nice (: and the mcs, mega fake.


haha. no offense though. =)



its 1233 a.m. happy birthday singapore. youre 40. u freakin old hag. wahhahaha.

its physics now. and im thoroughly tired out. just hours ago i got one hella screwing from miss ying. she chased me out of class. and i mean out. out of the block too, actually. i know, i didnt do hell lot of your work, yes. but was there even a need to talk so harshly? i slept at 2, just after i did my art and architecture. and i had to wake up at 5, to do this fkin quiz of urs. i just took whatever i could find and compiled them together. you think everyone keeps old newspapers? wtf. ytd i asked u, "er miss ying, only the quiz right?" and what did you say? "yea, just the quiz." and thats what i did. how was i to know i had to present it? like hello, you might say its like friggin common sense, but heck sorry. im just too stupid to have guessed.

so out i went. right to the toilet. thinking about what you have said. squandering my parents' money u say? well i wouldnt if i had the choice. when you were young, u mean u paid for your own studies? like COME ON. i've been trying to save their money for god's sake. right. i seriously shuldnt talk about this. i'll only break down one way or the other.

look, im over education man. all this shiit is just a fkin delusion. i think the tuition teachers does a much better job than all this graduates here, in tj. "i was born a clever, but education ruined me." my. if only everybody thinks this way, school will definitely be a no-no. and that everyone would be happy. well at least me. damn. everythin just keeps leading me back to miss ying.. argh. GET OUT of my head!

im going bonkers. a psychiatrist is what a need.

help me. im nuts.

quote of the day: For all sad words of tongue and pen, the saddest are these, 'It might have been.'

another day goes by.

god. everything seems so messed up. and i feel so slack. i havent been doing my homework for years. i owe so many teachers homework that i dont even know what are they anymore. cant i just skip this whole fkin studying process and get on with my life.

i would really appreciate it someone would change this whole studying thing and probably come up with a micro-chip or smthin.. to input into our brains and everything.. so we would get all the friggin knowledge we ever wanted. but i guess that'll be totally stupid. we'd be watching movies altho we all know clearly what was the ending and no one would participate in the olympics anymore because they knew they wouldnt have won if they participated anyway. nahh. that would a total fiasco. defeats life wouldnt it.

blah blah blah. crap NAPFA today... haiis. i did okay for all. BESIDES chin up. grr. hope i dont have to redo the bloody thing again.. really would have sucked otherwise.

oh yah. and i just quarelled with my dad. ah ever since they joined the school's parents support group(PSG) they have gone all konky and everything. and they tells the school EVERYTHING. so it basically leaves me to no where. plus. just in case u guys dunno. i think my mum's the chairperson of the PSG. bah. what a turn off. interference in everything. left right center. WHAM.

now i even dread coming to school. or going anywhere for that matter. its like, i dont feel like going anywhere anymore. and i only go home. to sleep + access the internet. not forgetting the aircon of course. i should really get some capital to get a place to live on my on. at least no one can disturb me.

im feeling really hot now.. aircon please work!!! argh.
and i think there is seriously something wrong with my internal organs. gotta go check it up someday. hope i live long enough tho. afterall, we do live once only.

dont we?



quote of the day: A candle loses nothing by lighting another candle. (p.s. i think this is really deep.)